Well the japanese exam is this week. I have been studying hard everyday (well I took a break on Saturday but other than that I have studied almost two weeks straight everyday). I am a little nerveous about the listening part (I can catch tidbits but sometimes I miss keywords that I need). I still need to pack and all too.

I have been having a little better time at work. I have just started disbelieving everything that Sue says and doing regular cleaning on a new schedule that works a lot better for me. Mainly because I am not having to kill myself every single night to get things done. Sure I am not cleaning everything everyday but its still clean enough that it can be eaten off of so I consider that a win. It allows more time to do extra work and still have some time for myself. (Yes I want time for myself everyone else does next to nothing I at least clean everything once a week so they can deal...not to mention that I do extra cleaning every month that I am technically not supposed to do but it helps for when the bosses show up).

I have been working on fanfics and art again...after I study and things have been going pretty good...working on some new angles and techniques I hope to have finished before Christmas.

Well thats it for me....

I don't really fully know if it is the cold or not but lately I just feel so tired and out of things. All I feel like doing most of the time is curling up and sleeping. I think I just need some personal time to myself to sit and reflect and to do things that make me happy.

Turkey day was pretty good....Both Chris and I have to work so making a big dinner was totally out of the picture....which reminds me I forgot to call my mom and give her my work schedule but I guess I can do that tomorrow when I get off work.

I really hate it but tomorrow Chris is going to drag me out of the house for some shopping. I personally am only getting one item and that is a christmas present for his brother ( in the end a game that was $60 will only be $20 and you can't argue with that). But Chris wants to go to Walmart to look at the dvds on sale which is going to suck. I really hate the crowds the day after thanksgiving. Normally I stay at home all day and play games but I have to go out into the jumble this year.

Oh yea kinda creepy.....there was a shooting in Boone on Saturday....Both the victim and the shooter were regular customers....its just really creepy and sends chills down my spine....in fact both were in the store before the shooting....so that makes it even creepier...

I know that the title is all werid and I don't really want to hear it....look it up on youtube under anime raver's fantasy....Its a good video.

Life has been up and down lately. Work has gotten to where I just give up. The other woman that works on my days off and I have agreed that we can't continue on the road we are on if we want to keep our sanity. So we have decided to do most of the regular cleaning each day but leave somethings for once a week. Its stuff that can be cleaned once a week and honestly its not like anyone will notice if we don't clean it everyday (which is sad in and of itself).

Personal life....not too much going on in this corner...I play some games when I get a chance...(I've just gone into a cleaning kick so that is taking up a lot of my time, not to mention that I still sleep a lot because I work thirds). I have been working on some commission art for a friend (yes I'm doing it for free so lay off). Its fun to do chibis of someone else's original characters especially when one doesn't have a personality really yet so I can be more creative with him....it makes me want to create a character like him to put with hers....I am also playing the ocarina now....I can play three songs by heart and am working on a fourth...they are all little kid songs (like Mary had a little lamb) but at least I can play it.

Well I guess that its for me right now...

Yea I bought the membership which makes me want to cry (they have a meet and greet thur but I have to work and all six twins will be there) *tear*. Ren Faire was fun I even managed to get on stage it was during "Don Juan in Heck" show. I had to blindfold Don Juan and I staked my claim on Migel while I was there. I adopted another dragon a big boy this time....though I have no name for the precious littleguy.

I have almost finished New Moon which means that I will go watch the movie after that.....I hope the hairstyles are better in the second movie.

I go to work tonight so I must go do that apartment cleaning now.....I've put it off way too long...

I have to say that looking at work this way has helped a whole lot. If I expect nothing out of Sue and then she does something then I gain a lot more than if I expect her to do anything in the first place.

I know that I'll probably be working Halloween which really sucks because everyone will be partying and it wll be almost impossible to get all the cleaning done. I just hope that a few go home so it won't be as bad.

I need to clean the house but I am always sooo tired after working third and there are so many other things that I want to do. I don't really get any help with cleaning (no offense to him just he doesn't help). I will continue to try to get stuff done but I have to try to have more energy. I guess I'll just have to try to get up a little earlier. That might  help solve the problem (I hope).

I could so use a team of guys cheering me on right now. Right now work sucks big time. Sue has been a whiny baby lately and isn't doing her job. I have actually gotten mad enough that I am currently not speaking to her (if I do try to say something I know that I am going to say something that I know I'll regret later). She is currently pissed at us because she thinks that we are all mad at her for no reason (there is a reason...she treats us like crap but she can't see it yet). I haven't been able to fully calm my emotions so I have to wait til I calm down enough to talk to her.

In other realms of interest; I am making progress on some of my artwork even though I haven't had as much time at work as I would like. I haven't been able to play many video games either but I will start working on it some more.

Well thats it for me for now....

BTW Chris might not be able to go to the Ren Fair...anyone else want to go with me????

Work: In general sucks. I number one have to face the fact that the coworker I normally work after just sucks and she refuses to actually do any work. I have found ways around that though so that I am not constantly making up for her crap and yet at the same time covering my butt enough that I won't get in trouble for not doing her job too. Also on the 20th of this month we have the big bosses coming in town for an inspection and honestly I am sick of having to do a majority of the cleaning for it. So I have decided that if I said I was going to do something (like clean the windows) then I will do it but otherwise I am not going to go out of my way to do a lot of extra. I mean I am bymyself all night everynight when the manager normally has someone else working with her all the time so she can do more cleaning too.

Art Determination: I want to finish stuff! I have so many ideas and I get about halfway done on one piece and then I get another idea and start working on it. I hate it! I guess that I will have to force myself to finish what I start so that I can have more artwork and feel better about my artwork as well. I guess I will start tonight after I finish my other chores.

I'm still alive!!!! I was so surprised to wake up this morning, I was sure that I would be dead......I mean come on it was homecoming so everyone was wasted and I was by myself at work for five hours! And then I had to drive home through druck ridden streets last night...(On a side note concerning that; the cops were sooo busy that while they had one drunk pulled over they saw on average three more drunks drive by....totally outnumbered the cops).

It feels great to be alive today though honestly I haven't really done much....Worked some more on the one-shot manga I'm doing (yes its shoujo you gotta problem with that?) I really want to play a game but I have no idea what game I should play...its kidda sad (there are so many and I just get hooked)....

Oh yea found an Otaku Dictionary that actually tries to define Moe (Even mentions Rei for Eva fans!).....It makes me wonder what kind of person wrote it because Moe can be defined so many ways. As Konata from Lucky Star says "Even the hard-core Otaku don't really know what Moe means its generally misunderstood". I happen to agree with this definition more. I feel Moe is a term that the definition moves around to mean different things to different people.

BTW I totally got a fortune cookie the other day that said I would make a good laywer and immediately I thought of Phoenix Wright (am I addicted????) Another crazy thing that happened is that I was listening to Bowling for Soup (did the American Dragonball Z Opening) and they have a song called High School Never Ends and I totally thought of Hunny Sempai from Ouran Koukou. (tee hee I heart Hunny!)

On yet another note...I WANT A VOCALIOD!!!!! SO BADLY!!! By the way for those of you who don't know my current icon (Blue Hair and confused look) is a vocaliod...in fact she is the original one. (FYI Vocaliods are computer programs that are able to sing and sing well).

To beat customers and co-workers with....I get sooo sick of it all sometimes. Last night, Sue didn't even bother to stock at all. In fact she clocked out about ten minutes after I clocked in. It is just fustrating to be in charge of having to do all the stores stocking and cleaning. It gets so bad sometimes that I just want to scream. It doesn't help that the manager leaves all the stocking to second shift since there is double coverage even though they had two people on her shift too. All it means is that I have even more stocking to do.....Sometimes I just want to scream at the people I work with....

Thats right I've managed to make it through another home game...with some sanity in tact....(not too much though cause I didn't have muc to start with.

Not to much to mention in the line of work other than that really. Oh I am really pissed about one work-related thing though. We were SUPPOSED to have this big inspection on Wednesday and I have been busting myself all week trying to get ready...even coming in thirty minutes early to get more cleaning done and then the bosses postpone the stupid thing. What makes it worse is that I have to hold off on anymore cleaning cause everything left was really last minute anyway and I don't want to redo it until they give us a date. Which will probably be about the times the first snows hit and its almost impossible to keep anything clean when salt and snow is constantly being tracked into the store.

I have to say though that I am really sleepy.....

Moving on...I have picked out the fanart I wish to do for Halloween now I just have to start the prelims and spacing parts...which are the hardest parts the actual drawing of the characters is the easiest part I have to say.

I still can't decide what to dress as for halloween...I know that I will probably be working and therefore I want something that I can work in so it can't be too complex....Movement is also an issue as I really need to be able to complete all my chores (mopping, stocking, etc....) So its really hard to decide what to do. I am thinking about a Kishidan outfit...(If you don't know who that is then go to yutube and look up Kishidan and just remember Kurt at con with his "Amazingly Bad J-Rock Videos". I guess I'll just have to keep working though....

I want things to look clean at home...but its so hard to do I feel constantly tired due to work and then I want to watch tv, anime and play games too. Its sooo hard sometimes just to get the strength to get out of bed with an hour to get to work.

I have totally been sucked into Vampire Knight lately. Another thing that has totally sucked me in is Dramacon...AGAIN I can't seem to stay away I always end up going back to it at some point. I just can't stay away from things that involve the otaku culture....Its just great to sit back and say "thats totally me!" or "I know a guy like that!". It makes it that much harder to wait for con.

Well thats it for me today I think I'll go relax now.

Thats words of wisdom from Domo....now I want you all to take that to heart and remember it I am the Overlord so I command it!

Its official....my husband is addicted to Scribblenauts....I should start a Scribblenauts Anyomous but Chris wouldn't join...he's not a quitter.

Work has kind sucked recently because of the whole inspection thing. On Wed the 30th we have a big inspection and we have to have the store absolutely spotless...which means that mainy Joyce and I will be doing all the cleaning. I can't breathe really well due to all the dust that I have been kicking up at work.

I have decided to reopen the Domo Does thing again....It should be fun. I've already got Domo defeating Cthulhu. I plan to do a lot more some involing the ps3. I also plan to work on some avatars too.

I have had like four days off between the next day I work and I have actually managed to get a lot of stuff done. Now I still have more to do I'm afraid (like a poster for work and posting some of that art I've been sitting on). Not to mention playing some neglected video games, ohh and watching anime).

I actually managed to finish another series...Handmaid May.....sooooo cute! I really enjoyed it.

So I guess I should get going now if I plan to get stuff done...Toodles

Have ya ever just gotten to a point where you sit down, look around and see that you need to clean but you lack the drive to clean not to mention you are unsure of where to start? Well I'm there...the dvd room needs attention desperately, there is barely a small path through the room to the computer but I just haven't had the energy to really get to it, not to mention I am unsure of how or where to start, I guess I'll have to clean the living room first and then move things bit by bit from the dvd room there and sort then decided once things are out how things will go back in. That might help some but who knows?

Also if anyone sees the original Petshop of Horrors manga could they let me know? I've got a friend who desperately wants the first series but I can't order them at waldens anymore. (If someone finds that I can order them from waldens or barnes and noble let me know). Also if anyone has Dr Who they could let me borrow I would be obliged. I have recently read three novels and have fallen in love with the series. All the novels had Martha Jones if that helps.

I don't return to work until Saturday so I hope to get a decent amount of stuff done during that time. I want to get some cleaning done not to mention I also want to watch some anime and play some games.

Recently fell in love with Blazblue...I'm pretty good with Rachel now which is funny because she is slower than some of the other characters and I normally do not prefer slower characters.

Well I guess that I had better go and get started if I plan to really get anything done now.

Yea went to the beach last week which wasa lot of fun however while we did see the beach we never actually went out to it. Which is just kinda funny. In all honesty, we spent a lot of time at MagiQuest (not complaining at all here). Its loads of fun and now there is one in Conover so I assume that one day we will kidnap Barbra and Gabby and take them to MagiQuest.

Since I got back into town, I have totally had the drive to draw and to read novels. Its really kinda funny before we left I was wishing for the drive to draw and when we get back I am totally into it and can't wait for the quiet times at work so that I can get started.

In work news my schedule has changed again. I now work four ten-hour days which means three days off instead of two not to mention that with the extra time I am definetly getting a lot more done before the two o'clock time. Which really works for me I have no problem with that.

With the students back for another semester I have to say that my schedule has changed but I don't know if its for the better or the worst. I now work four days with three off instead of working five days with two off. However I have to go in early when a co-worker I'm not particulary fond of is there. That totally sucks. But I guess the three days off are better than nothing.

( Fake Id )Okay so I worked Saturday night last week with a co-worker, well a guy comes in to buy beer, I'm not clocked in so I'm just helping the girl bag at the moment so she has to check the id, when she does she tells the boy that she can't accept his id which means of course that its fake. The guy stands there and tries to tell us that the id is legit. I glance over my co-worker's shoulder at the id and I can't help but laugh in the guy's face. I know it was rude and I do feel bad about laughing at him however the id might as well have said that it was fake it was that poorly made. He took two peices of paper and glued them together but he couldn't even line them up straight and to top it off I guess he thought he could get away with no holograms on it either, also it was a florida id and those are a lot like ours and are hard to bend but this one easily bent with no problem. Really do people even look at the ids they are trying to make before they do this??? I could do a better job and I'm over 21.

That really makes me worry about the intelligence of the human race.....

Anyhoo, roughly eleven days to my one year anniversary.....We are heading off to the beach again. Granted no time-share thingies this time. They say the presentation is only 90 minutes but they normally take about 5 hours instead. I managed to get a pail so I will try to build a castle this time and in true otakudom....maybe it will be Caglistro?? I might have better luck just making Tokyo Tower though....then destroy it cause thats what always happens to Tokyo Tower. Tee hee....

I need to work on my art but have been having more trouble with the motivation thing...so I'll try to stay up late tonight and get stuff done.

Well the manager is gone for the week (vacation so she'll be back). And so far three of the remaining four of us have been slightly cruel to the fourth. She doesn't do her work so yea all three of us are kinda doing things just to tick her off some. I hate to say it but its really kind of fun just to get her back for a while when she can't do anything about it. (Yes I know that we are being really cruel and yes I do feel a LITTLE AND ONLY A LITTLE bad for it). She constantly makes life harder for the rest of us so I feel a little justified.

Well since the manager is gone there are four of us covering for the week. Three of us are manager trained so we are doing the bulk of the work. It isn't too hard not with three of us. We are also working on cleaning since there is an inspection coming up at the end of September but seriously I am not really worried about the inspection at all. I've been cleaning the biggest items once a month so they all look fine. We just have to keep them looking neat and tidy for the big day. As for extra cleaning, why worry now...I'll do it closer to the actual time that way I won't have to do it again.

TTFN

The song is awesome if you ever look it up on youtube!

I need to find determination from somewhere I have no idea where I can find some but I really need it! I have so many projects and other things going on right now and really I don't have a way to proiritize anything. I started and wrote down everything that I wanted to get done but then thats as far as I got. I have currently been working on cleaning the entire apartment to get rid of dust and pollen...Its been hard work.

Speaking of work that hasn't been so great either. I know that Joyce is trying to help me but she keeps having me work two doubles (16 hours each day for two days) and then eight hour another day. Don't get me wrong the extra time off is great and all however it kinda sucks that I have to spend one day recuperating and I am so exhausted on that second shift that I honestly can't see straight half the time.

Well speaking of work I gotta go and star getting ready...Sorry so short!

Sorry about not posting anything yet Gabby, I'll be copying everything tomorrow (Saturday Aug 8th). I'll make sure to copy the cd's too so that you can practice with that too. As always if you have any questions just send them my way and I'll try my best to answer them or find someone who can answer them. I did figure though that we would be going to Atlanta together and staying in the same hotel.

I the fanart arena, I have been working on several different ideas but haven't finished anything yet. I managd to get a lot of cleaning done the other day here at the apartment but I know that I still have a lot to do.

Well I go to work soon so I think that for right now I'll talk later.

Thats right the Japanese Festival in Charlotte is coming up. It August 1st at 11am at the Wachovia/ Charlotte Artium. I am definetly planning on going this year but I haven't really been able to catch up with Gabby and Barbra about going. If you guys read this soon please call Chris or I and let us know, we can carpool and all chip in on gas. Also Gabby I know that you and I talked about making Bento for Bon Odori...are you still interested in that? If you are I can send some recipes your way that can help.

In the Wide World of Bento: I have been cooking like a madman all week to work on my bento skills (and not just or Bon Odori). So far I can make croquets and tuna patties and I finally have some of the other pieces down too. Granted now I am working on pretting my bento....that can be difficult. Its easy to make the actually food but to make it in a recognizable shape is another thing all together. Today my bento has slightly cat shaped croquets, naruto rolls, some soboro eggs and of course rice. I still have to do some grocery shopping soon though if I want to make a better looking bento for saturday....

Well thats it for me See ya!